Sidestep

The day swallowed; in 
the sun too long,

burning, I would run,
always behind a
shadow, a butterfly
I think, following

one created small, too –
carried with the wind
when it gusts, wings

assumed by outline
of one who flies.

Either way, the reminder of
fragility, to be made barely,

front a too bright light, colorless
and I know looking back pointless;

she follows whether I look or
do not see, so I found
a place with the trees
once  –  how I felt held

light as a paper; they reminded
of my father, catching
where made empty by an arm
with too needy of so much

and I un-did a bit,
unfolded at the feet
of every giant – a
once girl, become
heavy with rain

marking outline of roots
upon a blank page kept
in the back pocket,

to be impressed upon
like a map presses,
a way to the third self,
as infinite as the tree
I chose as mother, who
is here always by choice,
my own at least – without

taking of it, only the way
I feel be-side, leaning
upon, just a bit

into a way that would
choose life despite,
feeling like work
has been done/

I can fold along old creases
I felt once my weakness
as if how we begin is
the cause of pain,

and twice a child,
once pressed quiet as
a blanket ironed flat
is made agreeable,

draped upon, to fill gaps
and shaded places
of the one who
made her –

the first rendering,
draping upon every
coldness in the self

like a tree feasts on the
own, fallen leaves.


Morphe

i am where between,
clinging

have misunderstood
the task, traced the lines
of my mother's face

too long –

blooming beneath
a canopy; i, stemmed

from dirt and runoff;
maybe will breaks,

maybe the sun slants
to see me like my father
once did – i, with one hand

who gripped the ledge,
refusing

splitting roots
one here and one

unreachable, and who
with warmth like the night

holds memory of heat,
stays time in its quiet
contemplation

of a dream - have
i misunderstood the task -

or am mercy, bloomed
within a spun cocoon,

stranded in hope.