20131227-133415.jpgSometimes when writing, my memories or current observations are pushing their way onto the page. I feel a pressure inside that builds until I find the energy to release it into words.

Life is too often inside my head. A train passes by, the sun sets over Mount Hood, a passing cyclist smiles at me as I walk along the river and I am here and yet far away.

Connections and insights flicker to life, though I struggle with distraction; the cacophony of voices too demanding and actions too harsh. The strength of an old friend’s honest words, holding onto joy, and the healing that comes from simply being loved could be enough though.

I want to look one day and see with the clarity evident in those I admire many ways in which our words can be crafted and our phrases become art.

Of Consequence, a retrospective collection of poetry, is a collection of previously published poetry on this website and additional writings described as “explor[ing] the struggle between hope and disillusionment, using a blend of fantastical imagery and stark realism.”

You can purchase a copy here.


Let’s talk philosophy, psychology and the “why” of all this being if we meet. Let’s not give a damn and be silly. I’m obsessing about the latest urban fantasy book, but my day isn’t right unless we’ve sat together with our coffee or tea and good conversation. Walk in the woods, binge on escapism television, be genuine with each other… there is nothing more important to me than the word genuine. Genuine is my favorite word. So, when I think of what someone is ‘about,’ I think of how they are with a good, trusted friend or when not being watched. That more authentic self.

I live in Gig Harbor, WA with my husband and best friend, Daniel and our most sensitive and puppy-like dog, Apache. We have been in this remote area for under a year after our adventures in Portland, OR. I was never more excited by a city than Portland inspired by people met and places almost other-worldly throughout Oregon like Mount St. Helens and Devils Churn. This is where “Of Consequence” was put together. It was not current writing, but a letting go of previous versions of myself.

My husband, Dani, is my best friend; he is the person I love to laugh and have adventures with. He is my solace and my rock and sometimes, because it has mostly been just the two of us for so long, we must take turns holding the other up. The best days find us walking in the mountains, exploring new sites together and taking too many photographs, sitting with feet buried in the sand by the ocean, shooting our bow and arrow, and shamelessly enjoying the escapism of a good book or story.

I’ve observed that the content of what I write has some common threads both inspired and hindered at times by my love of the natural world, thoughts in existentialism, and beliefs from Zen Buddhism. I write about what I think. I write about what I don’t understand. I write about what I want to say exactly in this moment. I hope for this imperfect language to connect with another human being, wherever they are in this moment. Thank you for coming by.

Dealing with Chronic Illness

I have a genetic condition called  Ehlers-Danlos  Syndrome. It can be painful and frustrating and sometimes illuminating, so it nudges its way into my thoughts on occasion. Writing has always provided a way out, though I did not have a name for the illness until 2013.

Follow my journey with EDS at Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome Contemplations. The aim is to explore the process of acceptance through unedited reflection and introspection. Another goal for this site as it unfolds is to provide support to others living with chronic illness. Visit www.ednf.org and www.chronicpainpartners.com for a wealth of information on the subject.

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  1. Dawn Runs Amok
    May 17, 2011 at 10:19 pm

    Thank You for adding my blog to your poetry links, and for the lovely comment you added as well. I consider that to be high praise indeed!

    I’m already very impressed with your poetry.
    After barely scratching the surface of your blog, I’ve found it to be a wealth of strength, subtlety, and word craft.
    May I add your site to my Blog Solidarity page?


    • May 18, 2011 at 7:27 pm

      The comment was sincere. Thank you for the feedback, and any feedback is appreciated.
      I’d love to be added to your page…it is an honor. Thanks Dawn!

      • Dawn Runs Amok
        June 5, 2011 at 1:43 am

        Thank You, Stephanie. You’re most welcome. I wanted you to know that it’s my pleasure to have added you to my Blog Solidarity page: dawnrunsamok.wordpress.com/blog-solidarity/

        Thanks again, and please keep up the stellar work.

  2. June 23, 2011 at 6:15 pm

    Hi Stephanie,
    I was just surfing your twitter profile and want to invite you to share some of your writings with us in the Best Poems Encyclopedia if possible.
    Best regards

    • June 23, 2011 at 7:30 pm

      Thanks Louise. I took a look at the site, and it is really great. I’m going to take a good look this weekend to see what I may want to submit.

  3. July 1, 2011 at 6:10 pm

    Thanks for visiting 1513fusion, Stephanie and leaving your comment. I’ve returned the compliment and subscribed to your pages.
    I note: existential pantheist, a term I’ve not heard before. I meditate and try to follow Buddhism; perhaps there is a connection?
    I’ll keep looking in.


    • July 1, 2011 at 6:52 pm

      Thanks Harry. I think there may be a connection. I studied Buddhism for awhile and my beliefs may be still rooted there. The pantheism relates to the interconnectedness of life for me. The existential aspect relates to beliefs I believe are rooted in Kierkegaard, specifically living sincerely (with genuinity) despite darkness and obstacles. To keep a fervor for life and retain wonder as well. They’re ideals, of course. -Stephanie

  4. September 18, 2011 at 6:14 pm

    I love your poetry, perhaps because I’m also a pantheist-poet who is fascinated by physics and philosophy. Will look forward to reading more of your work!

    • September 18, 2011 at 7:15 pm

      Thank you Betty! It is always nice to hear from a like-minded poet.

      • September 18, 2011 at 8:11 pm

        Stephanie, I forgot to mention – trees hold a special “mystery” for me too. There’s an impersonal intelligence about them – a dignified presence. It always pains me to see one taken down. As you say, always nice to find a kindred spirit!

  5. September 18, 2011 at 10:43 pm

    “Impersonal intelligence” and “dignified presence.” Well said! I think that is why I feel most at home when hiking or sitting in the park. It is a comforting thing.

  6. January 4, 2012 at 12:19 pm

    I love your site and your poetry, Stephanie. I’m working on following your blog, but am getting a message from WP to “try again with a valid email address”—which I don’t understand at all! I’ll keep trying, though, and I look forward to reading more of your work. (P.S. I’m a NC native and got my degree at UNC-G!)

    • January 4, 2012 at 2:51 pm

      Thank you so much! I’m sorry you’re having trouble with the ‘follow.’ I ran into that issue last week and ended up first signing in to my wordpress account, then navigating to the individual’s blog, and then clicking on the ‘follow’ button. It shouldn’t ask for your e-mail if you’re logged in. :fingers crossed: You can also perhaps manage it from your account under your followers. WordPress added a button there to ‘follow.’ I love your blog as well; it’s very intelligent and lovely .=) I’m actually hoping to get into UNCG next fall for the creative writing MFA program. What’s your degree in??

      • January 5, 2012 at 10:04 pm

        Thanks…I managed to get it worked out. And thanks for your kind words about my blog…still figuring things out. I got a degree in dance education…many long years ago. Good luck with the MFA program! I applied to VCU for their master’s program in writing a couple of years ago and got accepted, but then I realized that it wasn’t the right path for me.

        By the way, I just nominated you for the 7×7 Link Award, which I was nominated for by someone who follows my blog. You can follow this link to find out more about it. http://pathwriter.wordpress.com/2012/01/05/7×7-award/

      • January 7, 2012 at 9:25 pm

        I wish I could dance…I have the shy gene. Thank you for the award; what a neat idea!

  7. June 23, 2013 at 4:46 pm

    Thanks for dropping by and following my blog, Stephanie. I am quite honoured after reading your blog…I love how you write…my appreciation of poetry has been hidden far away in the attic of teen years and is slowly resurfacing. I relish this new found world of words on Word Press and discovering so much creativity used with the “word”. Whispering Insights

    • June 23, 2013 at 8:01 pm

      Thanks Whispering! Words are sometimes my best friend or nemesis depending on the day and what’s going on in life. I think the key is just to keep at it and work towards the type of writer you want to be. Thanks again. You gave me a smile.😉

  8. August 13, 2013 at 6:47 pm

    Bless you.

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