The day swallowed; in
the sun too long,
burning, I would run,
always behind a
shadow, a butterfly
I think, following
one created small, too –
carried with the wind
when it gusts, wings
assumed by outline
of one who flies.
Either way, the reminder of
fragility, to be made barely,
front a too bright light, colorless
and I know looking back pointless;
she follows whether I look or
do not see, so I found
a place with the trees
once – how I felt held
light as a paper; they reminded
of my father, catching
where made empty by an arm
with too needy of so much
and I un-did a bit,
unfolded at the feet
of every giant – a
once girl, become
heavy with rain
marking outline of roots
upon a blank page kept
in the back pocket,
to be impressed upon
like a map presses,
a way to the third self,
as infinite as the tree
I chose as mother, who
is here always by choice,
my own at least – without
taking of it, only the way
I feel be-side, leaning
upon, just a bit
into a way that would
choose life despite,
feeling like work
has been done/
I can fold along old creases
I felt once my weakness
as if how we begin is
the cause of pain,
and twice a child,
once pressed quiet as
a blanket ironed flat
is made agreeable,
draped upon, to fill gaps
and shaded places
of the one who
made her –
the first rendering,
draping upon every
coldness in the self
like a tree feasts on the
own, fallen leaves.
Morphe
i am where between,
clinging
have misunderstood
the task, traced the lines
of my mother's face
too long –
blooming beneath
a canopy; i, stemmed
from dirt and runoff;
maybe will breaks,
maybe the sun slants
to see me like my father
once did – i, with one hand
who gripped the ledge,
refusing
splitting roots
one here and one
unreachable, and who
with warmth like the night
holds memory of heat,
stays time in its quiet
contemplation
of a dream - have
i misunderstood the task -
or am mercy, bloomed
within a spun cocoon,
stranded in hope.
Wilder-born
A white fox in the snow,
she was difficult
to spot: first the eyes
bright of copper
held wishes, tossed
between the bars,
every passing kindness
of good intent on the
long blank – was it
a cage she was born,
displaced –
too buried by the dog,
belonging as an old,
well-loved ball, forgotten
by time and inattention,
the haunting first and then
the self – how warm in
the thick-grown fur of
a wild thing. She slipped
the first prison, sliding
between two hard lines
by her own emaciation,
to fall tired where the snow
piled high on a bluff; she
sunk in its numbing, feeding
on passing birds. Until one day,
a hunter spotted those
unmistakable, pointed ears
turning in the wind, how
the eyes were halved
in careful dreaming –
and the fox, having
dreamt Possible before
possible was an action
especially of freedom –
quickly, made warm apples
of him, debriding his horror,
before he could take her skin.
This infection of violence
sent her walking again
and what looked like forever
was the curve of horizon
where she found softness
like the snow when first
fell, how it landed lightly
on the nose
before blanketing - to walk
on even below the passing
of clouds kept coming,
of winter or rebel storms.
skipping stones 