Sidestep

The day swallowed; in 
the sun too long,

burning, I would run,
always behind a
shadow, a butterfly
I think, following

one created small, too –
carried with the wind
when it gusts, wings

assumed by outline
of one who flies.

Either way, the reminder of
fragility, to be made barely,

front a too bright light, colorless
and I know looking back pointless;

she follows whether I look or
do not see, so I found
a place with the trees
once  –  how I felt held

light as a paper; they reminded
of my father, catching
where made empty by an arm
with too needy of so much

and I un-did a bit,
unfolded at the feet
of every giant – a
once girl, become
heavy with rain

marking outline of roots
upon a blank page kept
in the back pocket,

to be impressed upon
like a map presses,
a way to the third self,
as infinite as the tree
I chose as mother, who
is here always by choice,
my own at least – without

taking of it, only the way
I feel be-side, leaning
upon, just a bit

into a way that would
choose life despite,
feeling like work
has been done/

I can fold along old creases
I felt once my weakness
as if how we begin is
the cause of pain,

and twice a child,
once pressed quiet as
a blanket ironed flat
is made agreeable,

draped upon, to fill gaps
and shaded places
of the one who
made her –

the first rendering,
draping upon every
coldness in the self

like a tree feasts on the
own, fallen leaves.


Misfit

The man wants you easy,

knocking on the wall
for permission

but lightly, not in need
with that spark –

an anger of too fast words
better held without panic

of long eyes and
their fragile warning,

just like the moon, head
held bowed to the sun

is the owed, owned light
from a distance

hunted on every horizon;
those, back turned and running

are a reflection of another
until quiet,

looking upon the face
of one who demanded
what they will not:

a monster, a victim –

and upon the wall slam
the crumbling heart

knocking loudly on the long night
with dreams made vivid

too struck of love,
indelible by necessity:

the own, owned warmth of self

who once gathering flowers
within a cage grew rich
with seeds

now slipping, or falling,
between every crack

having found no door
to ask entrance

grown uncontainable.