Wilder-born

A white fox in the snow,
she was difficult

to spot: first the eyes
bright of copper

held wishes, tossed
between the bars,

every passing kindness
of good intent on the

long blank – was it

a cage she was born,
displaced –

too buried by the dog,
belonging as an old,

well-loved ball, forgotten
by time and inattention,

the haunting first and then
the self – how warm in

the thick-grown fur of
a wild thing. She slipped

the first prison, sliding
between two hard lines

by her own emaciation,
to fall tired where the snow

piled high on a bluff; she
sunk in its numbing, feeding

on passing birds. Until one day,
a hunter spotted those
unmistakable, pointed ears

turning in the wind, how
the eyes were halved

in careful dreaming –
and the fox, having

dreamt Possible before
possible was an action

especially of freedom –
quickly, made warm apples
of him, debriding his horror,

before he could take her skin.

This infection of violence
sent her walking again

and what looked like forever
was the curve of horizon

where she found softness
like the snow when first

fell, how it landed lightly
on the nose

before blanketing - to walk
on even below the passing

of clouds kept coming,
of winter or rebel storms.

Adaptation

Once living in blue,
how deep the hand in my head
loved by a hungry sky

would become sharp of edges,

ripped my born wings that
a songbird bound; crawled

crushed flowers placed
in pockets I thought

could weave a crown.

It was that I knew first
having arms of cirrus:

insubstantial and searching
like water feels every

form of inauthenticity
and fills it;

I would bleed when needed
and not wanting to die

have untied each
found fiction to see
its kinked rope.

When once there was
first, forced inattention

like my mother unable to
hug when unwatched

could it be enough
that never like her father
left her broken,

she only left –

and a love that made me
has tried to take me
and save me same

stumbling into what is
familiar, many times

until older, I have felt
long beneath a snow

like a seed dreams of
a tree they will know.